Go Your Own Way
I remember dreading the phone call.
I was about to cancel a bridal shower at a local business and explain that the wedding was off.
The words came out:
“I’m sorry, but I have to cancel this weekend because I’m not getting married anymore. I decided to call it off.”
To my surprise, the woman on the other end of the line replied, “Good for you!”
I felt an incredible sense of relief. I had been so worried about upsetting her by canceling that I hadn’t even given myself credit for the courage it took to make that decision.
Her words empowered me, reminding me that it was okay to trust my instincts.
“I’m sorry, but I have to cancel this weekend because I’m not getting married anymore. I decided to call it off.”
Breaking Hearts to Follow My Own
Calling off the wedding was one of the hardest decisions I’d ever made, largely because I’ve always had a tendency to worry about what others think and feel.
But the reality is, life is messy, and sometimes, following your heart means that others will feel hurt.
Not intentionally, but living true to yourself doesn’t always align with the expectations others have.
From Reception Tablecloths to New Artwork
This story came to mind recently as I worked on my new artwork. Ironically, some of the fabric I’m using was originally meant to be tablecloths for that wedding reception. Looking at it now, I can’t help but laugh—particularly at the green fabric with pink and purple butterflies.
I mean, really? That was going to decorate the reception hall? LMAO!
Moving on from that, I struggled to come up with a title for this piece. Titling my work is always a challenge, but as I reflected on this story, a title finally surfaced. It was just like the moment I knew I couldn’t go through with the wedding: “You Can Go Your Own Way.” And yes, the Fleetwood Mac song immediately started playing in my head. Does this happen to anyone else? 70s rock music just has a way of speaking to my soul!
Trusting My Gut
It feels like a lifetime ago, and while many details have faded, I still remember how tough that decision was. At twenty-one, I didn’t have the confidence I have now. Back then, I couldn’t trust that everything would work out; I just hadn’t lived long enough to know better. But I trusted my gut, and I moved on.
So, here’s my reminder to you: go your own way. Even in the face of uncertainty, trust your instincts, even if it’s not what you want to do at that moment but know you must. There’s color, joy, and new relationships waiting for you. I promise. :)